On Christmas of 2016 I was only able to stay awake for maybe 15 minutes. I had been in tremendous pain for so long. Without control over my own bodily functions and after weeks of water and a few bites of bread...

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I could feel by body shutting down. It was an exhaustion like nothing I had ever experienced. I could no longer keep my eyes open. Slowly, my body was shutting down. I felt it. And I was okay with it. The transition out of this life had begun. For the first time in months the pain began to be relieved. I was dying. I was not going to make it my 36th birthday. I was not going to

make it to 2017. ​